Rahul's Blah - Really Don't Know what to Call this Blog... Too Many things in One..

Topics in my blog have ranged from the Mundane to the Thought provoking to the Really Really Personal.

I have been an on and off blogger for over two years now. When I discovered this medium of communication, I found for myself an outlet to one of my favorite pass times. I love to write. No matter what it is about. The subject matter more often than not has reflected my mood at the current time. Of course I know my writing at times seems to ramble on with out getting to the point, but that has more to do with the flow of thoughts in my mind than the actual inability to write.

Over the years I must have tried to maintain a diary (Unsuccessfully) documenting the tings that have happened in my life. I used to write in my diary for a few weeks or a best months and then I would slack off and completely forget that I ever had one. Then sometime down the road the urge would be back to write, to log my thoughts and feelings and it would be back a New diary with new new events.

This stop and start nature has continued with my blog as well. But it has been the longest I have ever kept up with anything to do with writing that I have started.
Blogging in a sense gives me this strange kind of release where I know I might be read one day or the next and it not being written for no one to ever see again.

The possibility is always there that what I have written gets read by those close to me and they know what I am feeling and how I am doing. I remember one such blog that provoked quite a strong reaction once.

But then I have to say, Rahul on the blog world is Anonymous, on most occasions Posts here are not things I discuss while I am not on my blog. In a sense it is a release a way for me to share my thoughts and feelings.

I love comments, I love responses. I like most people like to know that others read my blog. But like most journals, my online journal seems to be quite repetitive in a sense. Moods and feelings that come and go, when documented all seem to similar.

Although I have been blogging for a long time now, I have started reading blogs only off late. I find that a lot of us find that our blogs give us the easiest ways to vent our feelings. Not too many of us actually publicize our blogs, of course we make it known that we have one and it is open for all to see. Reading certain blogs at times makes me feel so close to friends I have not met in a long time or even those that I do not know very well. I has reinforced a lot of friendships for me.

The frequency of my blogs has increased exponentially since I have come to U.S.A. Well I guess the reason for that is quite simple. I was surrounded by the people I love back home and other than the odd instance or thought that really captured my imagination that I felt needed to be blogged I hardly ever did. I would start of every 3rd or 4th blog with . Wow it's been a while... But here, it is my way to keep in touch with friends and family, for people I know to hear my thoughts and perhaps hear my voice in these words.

Sentimental I know, but that's who I am a Cancerian through and through, I an really attached to my love, my family and my friends. Keeping in touch has never seemed out of my mind.

Today I am blogging only because I wanted to write. I put my fingers on the keyboard and what ever is coming out is from my heart. I know it is tough to give this particular blog a subject as it seems to cover a whole gambit of thoughts. Well I guess it's all about Rahul's Blah...

Not Really A Blog - Just 2 Points of View.

Well my friend just put up a blog. Made sense in a way. And well provoked me to comment.
Comment is long enough for a blog, but I don't want to take the credit away from his blog. So Just the link to the Blog.

http://viswajithandharry.blogspot.com/2007/10/dollar-bug.html

Interesting thoughts Vishwa..

Rahul......

"As we forgive those who trespass against us."

This line is from a prayer that many of us might have said every day for years. (I did for 14 years)
It's a line where we ask God to forgive our sins the way we forgive the sins of others.

Have you ever thought about what it means. What it is to hold a grudge? How it is to will someone ill.
Would we ever be able to live with ourselves if what we wish comes true?

I don't think there is a single person in this world who is evil. There are different points of view. There might be a few people who might do harm to another but they are another story. I am talking about the anyone who is mentally well and has no murderous instincts. This blog is about Love, Hate, Being a good person. I started with a line from that Prayer as i felt it was an apt way to convey a message.

I'm not going to reiterate that message now. Maybe I will later, for now, let's get to the point.

All of us at sometime or the other in our lives would have been hurt by someone. Instinctually we wish that something bad happens to that person. It's something that comes to all of us at that instant. But how far can that hate go? And whom does that hate hurt more?

I can state for a fact if will hurt you more internally than it would ever hurt the person you are hating!

There are occasions where that person does it knowingly to payback something you did or maybe did not do.Or there might be times it might be a provocation. The worst and the most common of all is when we are hurt by someone we love. Someone we care about. We are hurt to such an extent that the pain, the anger and the hate boil up and hurt us more..

So what do we do? Hate back? Hurt Back? I don't think that's the way to go! Well I'm not going to be all spiritual and say Turn the other cheek. It's an option, but in the short term you can try and fix the problem, or you can walk away from the pain.

But as the anger subsides and only the pain remains, try the magic cure.. Try and forgive. It will give you more happiness to forgive and forget the pain than to hold it up inside. Think of the good times and smile. Maybe your relationship with that person may mend, maybe it will never be the same again. Either way, you will be a better person for it. It may take time for this forgiveness to happen, but when it does you feel better.

I have in my own life tried what i am writing here today. And I can say it works.

Be a good person. Don't wish anyone harm. Life's too short for all that. Just be the best you can be, to yourself, your family, your wife, your girlfriend, your best friend, your neighbor, your ex, who ever.. Anyone you encounter. Give them a smile, It might brighten up their day, but it will certainly work wonders on yours.

Rahul......

An Ode to My Love

When She cries, the heavens cry too.

When She's sad, my heart breaks in two.

Her sadness brings pain to my heart.

To make her smile becomes a purpose for me.

I try and I try till my tongue and my eyes can say no more,

But but her eyes say more with every tear than my words can ever say.

I wish I had the power to take away all her sadness and replace it with Joy.

I wish I had the power to make her smile.

To see her smile makes my day, to hear her laugh would take my breath away.

I wish for her to be happy always. To be the best that she can be and make my days for eternity.

Hello World

This is the most common first program that anyone learning a new software writes..

It's an initiation into the language and the structure of that language..

BUT.......

This blog is not about Software..

It's about Me.

A bored Software Engineer who just felt like saying "Hello World".

So What's been happening in my life...

Well nothing much really.. I was insanely busy over the last month and frankly I couldn't think of anything to write about. But now I am sitting idle.. I'm in between assignments and I felt it is the right time to write a blog...

I never did realize how working becomes a part and parcel of your day to day activities..



It's only when you sit back and have nothing to do for a few days do you realize how cool it is to go to work everyday and do something all day long..

Not giving your self more than a few minutes every now and again to relax and just spending the day with colleagues/co-workers and friends..

I guess enjoy work or not.. We all love Work at some level. There is no way we can get through day after day if we did not. I we don't like what we do, we learn to like it.. Well I never did think when I started out on this line of work that I would like it at all. Now 2 years down the line.. When I get my first chance to sit back and think about it I realize that I actually enjoy the challenge. Be it the coding, be it the calls, be it the design sessions.. I enjoy it all.. We all somewhere along the way find something that we love in our jobs even if there is a lot that we hate..


I never pictured myself as a guy who would be singing the praises about working. But well I guess I surprise myself at times..

Chill Guys...

Cya..