Changing Life.. A Very Personal Blog.

Well. I'm looking forward to the rest of my life. Most of you who have read my blog, or those who know me know that I have been in a relationship with my better half for almost 4 years now. Both of us are going to take the next step soon and tie the knot. To be honest before the talks began, I was nervous about that phase of my life, but the day it became official, I felt it was the most natural thing to happen... I was so happy when things started falling in place. This blog, is just me trying to put the big smile on my face into words.

Looking back on my life, I have gone through a lot over the last 8 years, I have completely changed as a person. The once introverted, nervous, awkward guy who had no self confidence, one who did not know what he wanted to do with the rest of his life has changed into a very different person. I feel I'm more confident in what I do, although I'm still a bit awkward, I atleast more comfortable with me as a person. I never knew what I wanted to do with the rest of my life, careerwise.. I don't think I still know. But, I like what I do. I like taking the challenges on. I always wanted to write and I think this Blog, however infrequent it maybe, gives the outlet to the artistic urge.

When she came into my life, I was at a crossroads, I might have become a loner again, or got knows what.. But, what actually ensued was the most wonderful time of my life. We have been through a lot together, and have grown up together and now finally, We move our relationship one step further.. And the date is now fixed for the rest of our lives together to begin.

I've changed and grown a lot over the last few years, from a boy who was drifting aimlessly to a man who is able to envision the rest of his life together with the girl he loves.

Cheers..

Rahul

Blog on : 11th April 2008. Posting it only today.

Loneliness is a strange feeling.

It’s been a year since I left home. A year since I started this new life, this new phase of my career. But this year has brought with it a lot of hurt as well. But, I have also had the opportunity to grow as a person, to find my confidence again, to become an independent man. I’m writing this while I’m in the aircraft going home, Yipee Yahoo.. Finally..

I never did think that this would be so hard on me. Walking into a restaurant alone. Eating alone, living each day with a longing to call her again. I don’t know if she felt te same, the loneliness, I mean.. I was hard on her, I know that. I really don’t know what these few weeks have in store for me.

My parents are completing a Quarter Century together. Wow. Through it all they have held on. To tell the truth, I was scared to leave home. I was so scared. I thought there was nothing left there for them. I’m so happy I’ve been proved wrong. I’m so happy they are still with each other.

My sister is getting married. Wow, it’s been such a long time. Time flies by. I’ve known her now for over 6 years. She is one of the most important people to me in this world and is more family to me than anyone else around. The way she talks, the way she laughs, the way she listens, it’s a friendship beyond compare. She’s always been there for me. Through the thick and the thin.

But when I feel lonely, it’s mostly because of her. The girl whose eyes captivated me the day I looked at her. The one, who by her shear presence in my life, makes it more lovely. Our relationship has gone very specific phases, the year of friendship and courtship, the year we professed our love, the year we told our parents and the year I left home. It pains me that I put her through this, I find it very difficult to put in words my feeling for her. She is a friend, a confidant, a love, a hope, a beauty, my drive, really don’t know. What I do know is that I want to meet her and rekindle the flames that have been put on Ice by this year away.

Quotable Quotes..

"You are Not Delegating Enough, If all the questions you get asked are easy for you to answer!"

Courtesy : Paul M. Ingevaldson (Retd. CIO at Ace Hardware Corp.)

Full screen flash problem

Not Sure, How many of you have had this problem...

But, Here is the solution...

Off late I have this problem with every online flash based video player. If I try to run the video in full screen it just show up blank. The audio was fine but no video. I finally got off my laziness and googled it. I got a very simple solution with works from the site VistaX64.com:

1. Right-click in the standard youtube video window (non-full
screen).
2. Choose 'Settings...' from the Flash Player's pop-up menu.
3. Uncheck the 'Enable Hardware Acceleration'
4. Click 'Close'.

Thanks freethinker for the solution.

What makes Us So Special?

Really general question. What I am trying to ask is,

"What makes us Human?"

We feel. That's what makes s human. And I don't mean the 5 senses. I mean, something more. Something only we can feel. Emotion.

"It's What makes us Human?"

Emotion is something you feel every moment of your life. You feel, Happy, Sad, Content, Haughty, Humble, Angry, Upset, Numb, In Love.. Emotion is such a strong feeling.

I would go so far as to say the only reason we do things in life is to feel the good emotions and keep away the bad. Think about it, when you feel angry or sad, won't you do anything for that feeling to go away.

When you are in love, won't you do anything to make sure it lasts forever. Because it brings you indescribable happiness.

As a species, I feel we all live life to experience our emotions.

You walk down a road one day and just look around you. The number of emotions you will see will be so numerous, I'm sure you ill catch yourself wondering when was the last time you felt that particular emotion.

If you are wondering how you can find so many emotions, It's easy! Look into their eyes. All the answers to what someone is feeling or thinking is right there. You will never know what they are thinking, but you can get an idea of how they are feeling.

Live your life. Experience all your emotions. Good or Bad, Happy or Sad, They all make you who you are!

Rahul..

Just A Month to Go! :)

I'll be going home... In one month's time..

I'm really looking forward to my vacation. It's been a year since I left and I am excited to be going home for a holiday. I missed my family, friends and my esp. my special someone. Never did think one year ago that I would miss them so much.

I know now, why they say. "There's No Place Like Home"

Many a person has asked me if there a special occasion for me going home now. Well, all I say is, I hope so. It's been almost 4 years since this phase of my life started, and I think it's time to take it to the next level. Also, it's my parents 25th wedding anniversary. So, I had to be home for that.


I am really looking forward to April 11th, the day I go home.

PS : Just a personal Blog. If it sounds cryptic, well that's the way I wanted it to be. If you know me, you know what I am talking about. :)

Have a great weekend

Rahul